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|Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004|
I know I haven't posted anything in a long time, I will in due time. In short: Life is good, life is grand-God has been good to me. I haven't forgotten my site and plan to rebuild the photo database when I get the chance, I have a new job that I love, I am purchasing a mustang convertible in a couple of weeks woohooo! The bad news is that my beloved grandfather is sick and doesn't have much time to live, though I know once he does pass he will no longer be in the pain he is now. I pray for him every chance I get. Also Nessa recently got attacked by a german shepard and i pray for her recovery too. The thought of how horrible that experience must have been for her saddens me. ....As for my spiritual life...The passion of the Christ has changed me in ways I cannot describe fully. But for now I must share with you a quote I got from a friend on myspace...
Nothing and Everything are Miracles......
Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being. TO LET GO OF SOMEONE DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO STOP LOVING, IT ONLY MEANS THAT YOU ALLOW THAT PERSON TO FIND HIS OWN HAPPINESS WITHOUT EXPECTING HIM TO COME BACK. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness scare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime. There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is though everything is a miracle.
|Sunday, March 21st, 2004|
|Let it go
One more from the beautiful charlene on myspace:)
LET IT GO...
Let it go for 2004...by T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: Let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.
You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to ...LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ...LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you ... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge .. LET IT GO!!!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction ... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents ... LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude...LET IT GO!!!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better... LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him... LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed .... LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to... LET IT GO!!!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2004!!! LET IT GO!!! Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then LET IT GO!!!
*Thank you to the Beautiful Patty Z*
|Monday, January 5th, 2004|
|www.myspace.com, my site, getting evicted
From now on I will be posting my journals at myspace.com. I may come back here but I really like myspace!
If you don't have an account, sign up! www.myspace.com
To find me, look up michelle curiel or firstname.lastname@example.org and request to add me as a friend, make sure you send me a note first letting me know you want to post replies to my journal if I don't know who you are because I don't add friends unless I know them or have spoken to them.
Also, latinabarbie.com is down because the server it was on got taken hostage...long story but it will be back up the end of this week hopefully. I lost the pictures database so I will need to rebuild that from scratch! grrr! They deleted my entire site off their server? In fact every site got deleted...it really sucks I'm pissed but I can't do anything about it since I wasn't a paying customer.Oh well life goes on!
rest of this entry has been made private...i thought about it and realized that i disclosed too much info for the world to see... Current Mood: aggravated
|Friday, December 19th, 2003|
|My heart hurts
I am so sad right now...when it rains it pours :( I need to start going out again instead of staying home and thinking about everything. *sigh* When will it be my turn? Current Mood: crushed
|Wednesday, December 17th, 2003|
|Tuesday, December 9th, 2003|
'T'was the night before Christmas
and all through the town
Not a sign of Baby Jesus
was anywhere to be found.
The people were all busy
with Christmas time chores
Like decorating, and baking,
and shopping in stores.
No one sang "Away in a manger,
no crib for a bed".
Instead, they sang of Santa
dressed-up in bright red.
Mama watched Martha Stewart,
Papa drank beer from a tap.
As hour upon hour
the presents they'd wrap
When what from the T.V.
did they suddenly hear?
'Cept an ad.. which told
of a big sale at Sears.
So away to the mall
they all flew like a flash...
Buying things on credit...
and others with cash!
And, as they made their way home
From their trip to the mall,
Did they think about Jesus?
Oh, no... not at all.
Their lives were so busy
with their Christmas time things
No time to remember
Christ Jesus, the King.
There were presents to wrap
and cookies to b ake.
How could they stop and remember
who died for their sake?
To pray to the Savior...
they had no time to stop.
Because they needed more time
to "Shop til they dropped!"
On Wal-mart! On K-mart!
On Target! On Penney's!
On Hallmark! On Zales!
A quick lunch at Denny's
From the big stores downtown
to the stores at the mall
They would dash away, dash away,
and visit them all!
And up on the roof,
there arose such a clatter
As grandpa hung icicle lights
up on his brand new step lad der.
He hung lights that would flash.
He hung lights that would twirl.
Yet, he never once prayed to Jesus...
Light of the World.
Christ's eyes... how they twinkle!
Christ's Spirit... how merry!
Christ's love... how enormous!
All our burdens... He'll carry!
So instead of being busy,
overworked, and uptight
Let's put Christ back in
Christmas and enjoy
some good nights!
Merry Christmas, my friends!
|Monday, December 8th, 2003|
Hmmmm so the place i work for...they want me to tie up loose ends with all the graphics stuff and then they are going to make me start doing accounting stuff. they dont have anymore graphics stuff for me to do so they are going to outsource the rest. NICE. this Should be taking place within the next month. WTF? I've been looking very hard for a new job but theres nothing out there. I've had some close calls but nothing concrete. Everything is freelance. So im suck in this dead end job that is going to make me do something I am not even remotely interested in - data entry. Isn't there something I can do about this? i want to quit but i cant risk not getting at least unemployment while i look for a new job. Why doesn't he just lay me off so I can do freelance work or somethin while I'm off and start building my portfolio? blah. Current Mood: annoyed
|Tuesday, November 25th, 2003|
You don't know what you have until you've lost it.
Don't wait until it's too late. Current Mood: pensive
Got this from dezireddiva
s journal :p I couldn't resist!
so i want you to post anything that you want. Anything.
Post a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything.
Be sure to post honestly and anonymously, though.
Post as many times as you'd like, and then put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say. Current Mood: curious
Got this from Nessa'sdezireddiva
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs. What Type of Soul Do You Have ? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: cool
|Wednesday, November 19th, 2003|
|Got this from Nessas journal
Sorry I haven't written lately, i'll get around to my LJ soon. :) For now, here's a lil questionaire I got from Nessa's journal
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. Do you consider me a good friend?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Would you make a move on me?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Do I cross your mind at least 2 times a day? Current Mood: tired
|Thursday, October 16th, 2003|
So I get a call from my dad tellin me that the car isnt going to be ready till tomorrow. That means I have to go to BFE (1 1/2 hours w/traffic) to pick up my lil sisters car so i can drive it back to BFE (hb) so i can drive to work tomorrow then drive back again to drop it off in BFE and pick up my stupid car and drive back to BFE again on a friday night. FUN!
I'm hungry, sleepy, and I wanna go home. :( Current Mood: aggravated
|Wednesday, October 15th, 2003|
How funny that I get the result of Air...afterall..libras ARE air signs and whaddayouknow? I'm a libra! YOU ARE AIR!
Your inner element is one of change and growth. You
are an intensely intellectual and curious
person who simply must know the answers to
everything. You question everything about the
world and the people in it. Because of your
constant search for new things you are blessed
with the ability to change and adapt to most
anything. You love people and tend to get
active in causes that interest you. You tend to
attract many friends but don't tend to hold on
to them for great lengths of time. Any career
that stimulates your desire to learn or develop
new things is ideal for you. Love for you tends
to start out as friendship and build into a
life-long commitment. You look for trust and
openness in your partner, and once you find it
you will let yourself fall completely in love.
Your greatest strengths are your incredible ability
to learn and adapt to all things. Your
weaknesses are your inability to slow down and
let others catch up. If you aren't careful, you
will leave too many people in the dust.
Balancing your strengths and weakness is
crucial for you to achieve balance in life.
Astrologically, Air is associated with the signs of
Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. You are most
compatible for either love or friendship with
another Air Elemental or with an Fire. You are
least compatible with a Earth Elemental.
Now that you have an idea of your strengths and
weaknesses, why don't you put them to the test?
If you follow my lead I can take you to a game
world where you can explore different sides of
yourself and taste real power....
the world can be yours.
Which of the 5 Prime Elements are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Current Mood: okay
|Tuesday, October 14th, 2003|
Mercury Sables can kiss my arce! blaaah! It never even gave me any signs. SO i just talked to the transmission place...it's going to cost a total of $1950 for everything. I got quoted for a 1600 somewhere else but unfortunately i would only save $100 by the time i towed it and paid this other place the fees I owe them already. The whole transmission has to be rebuilt. GREAT. I JUST paid off my creditcards and took out an $8000 loan to consolidate my bills. Just when I thought I was going to have a lil xtra cash in my pocket. Just when my insurance went down I get a speeding ticket. WTF!? Today sux and I hope the cop that gave me the ticket today gets a case of the runs! baaaah! Current Mood: frustrated
|When it rains, it pours
Money money money...something I greatly lack right now. My car just gave out on me-TRANSMISSION. My dad just called me and told me they said it was going to cost 2 thousand dollars to fix. WTF!?!!??! It's worth no more than 3,000 and i have to pay 2,000 to fix it? Then yesterday the cell phone company calls...pay $200 or get disconnected, and by the way...the remaining balance is nearly $400. If i want my own phone line it's going to be $85 an hour to install...rent was due and I have NO money in my checking and only $320 in checking plus. Great its going to bounce and im going to have to pay my landlord the check bounce fees. Then to top it all off I get pulled over for speeding this morning(I was driving stephs car to work). I was going 55 on a 40. I don't know wtf I'm going to do. Everything is coming down on me all at once. It's hard to keep my head above water at this point. Just when things are going good, they turn sour. My job sucks and underpays me, and now this. It's hard to keep a positive outlook at times like this, it really is. I've been cool and trying not to stress out too much all the way until my stepdad told me this morning I had to pay 2,000 for it. wtf am i going to do? I wanted to get another car, now I'm stuck with my granny car of a sable for who knows how much longer. I'm really sad right now. :( Current Mood: distressed
|Friday, September 26th, 2003|
Thank you Bob for my Mickey Ds birthday meal! *BIG HUG*
You officially made my day better! Current Mood: hungry
|Tuesday, September 23rd, 2003|
click on the pic above to see the few pics taken at Club Live at the Grove.
The club was OK. I was a bit bored and didn't feel too good about the night
before (I suspect my drink was spiked with GHB, I don't remember the night before,
thankfully I had friends that took good care of me). I don't really like the
fakeness. I like places that are more about the music than about the image.
Richard Humpty Vision spun a good set though so it made it worthwhile. Why is
it that so much happens in my life even if it's only a couple of weeks? This
year has definitely been phenomenal. I'm about to turn 25 on Friday. It's funny
because last year TOTALLY SUCKED and this year was AWESOME! It's like my life
has done a complete 360. Sure I've had ups and downs (like my cubital tunnel
hand issue GRRRRR) but hey that's life it happens! "This too shall pass" Overall
there have been *many* more ups than downs. *I Thank the lord up above for being
so kind to me and showing me so much about life and about myself* Being 24 kicked
Let me list the reasons why.... ( click here to read more...Collapse ) Current Mood: pleased
Chinese cookie fortune I got today:
"Do not let your instincts run right over your reason."
Fits with some of the thoughts I've been having recently about things occuring in my life. Interesting. Current Mood: contemplative